My boyfriend is reading my blog.....I'm so nervous..

My boyfriend is on my blog right now, Saturday, October 16, 2010 at 2:41 pm reading my blog.  How does this make me feel? My stomach feels like it's tied in a knot.. this is real!!  I know, I put the information out there, but someone..my boyfriend is on the phone with me and he is reading it.  EVERYONE WILL KNOW.......scary feeling.  I guess I did not know how I would react when he read it..I'm so nervous I cannot speak... He cannot understand why I feel nervous.  oh the silence on the phone.....more silence.......................he's reading....I ask him baby what are you on....May 19th living as the victim......yikes......be brave Jacqueline...stand tall! STAND TALL!  Keep your HEAD UP  GIRL! Feel GOOD!  BE PROUD! You are the VICTOR!

He is still reading.... I asked if we should hang up the phone so he can continue reading....he knew what I was trying to do and said, "NO. I'm good!"..I just laughed and said, "OK, I'm good too!"

He made a sound....he's at the part where I am talking about the ex-girlfriend....I need to read that part..he's ahead of me.... shoot.  I want to capture the conversation... Oh my gosh!!!, My baby made me laugh so hard! MAN I needed that LAUGH!!!....better keep the comment to myself for now. I'm still feeling nervous..oh good more conversation!!!

He said, "it was BS that he only got a slap on the wrist."  Yup, I totally agree especially because he bragged about being a "black belt."

Where you at babe? He said, "November 9th., Hey you took a lot of time off between May & November." I said, "yeah, that was my mental breakdown period."  Ohhh, my boyfriend stopped reading..He said, "that was crazy baby" I know, I know. it was very crazy..He said, " I cannot read anymore right now." I just said, "I know baby, it was very crazy." ..now we need to change the subject... and he's watching the Yankees!

Now, I will go back to finish reading and to fill in the blanks between May and November.  I can do this! I also decided that I would dedicate one chapter of my book to all responses or comments I receive.  AHHHHHHHHH, I AM ACTUALLY DOING IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is getting exciting for me!!!!!!