Conversation with daughter

My daughter just got home from work at Applebee's.  She told me she was very proud of me for putting my story out there.  I'm am still feeling a little scared....and I guess it's because I change when I start typing...I don't know to explain it...it's like the words are coming out of my head and I cannot write fast enough.  I don't pay any attention to grammar or punctuation..the words come out so fast and I'm trying to capture every word.  As my daughter and I were talking moments ago she said, "good for you mom!" I told her that I don't want anyone to ever experience the fear we experience in the first 48 hours.  I was in so much physical and emotional pain and I don't have full memory of that night.  I was beaten so severely and I remember hurting so bad that I thought i was dead.  My daughter told me..mom, I just remember all the phone calls we have to make regarding getting the restraining order filed and I felt like we were the one's going through hell..he did not have to do anything! We are the one's who had to go get that piece of paper.  What good was that piece of paper?  He was sitting behind bars protected. You know what she was right.  When I hear my kids make these comments it makes me wonder how many other dads and moms have the same conversations?  I don't ever want anyone to experience the hell that my kids, family and I had to experience.  My family still has nightmares and visions of my screaming in the hallway...(I recently had a quick vision of the moment and when I looked at the woman I did not know who she was....it was me). My boyfriend Sergio keeps telling me.  baby, tell your story.  You need to help people and focus your energy in the right direction!  My baby is from Huntsville Alabama and he is a total Southern man!!! My inspiration came from my family!!! please also know that I have not gone back to read my information... I decided to take you on my journey with me...I'm afraid to back to the first story and start to read it.  I can do this!  I am a strong Latina woman and I am the VICTOR OF THIS SITUATION!  He is the loser! I do pray for him...it took me a looooooooooong time to be able to do that. My brain will not stop....more to follow tomorrow.  My daughter and I are going to talk a little and then I'm going to video chat with my baby because he's in San Diego.  Lord, please help me make my move to San Diego. PLEASE!  OK, more to follow tomorrow.