2 weeks since the beating

I can't believe I'm going through hell! I had to drive to Milpitas to give the deputy the correct form to fill out so I can file the restraining order. You know what really made me mad..the correctional officer at the front desk..he was trying to be nice to me. I was explaining what happened with the paperwork and that the deputy filled out the wrong form and I was not in the right frame of mind to double check the form so I tried calling...he stopped me and said, I can tell you that you've called around 20 phone numbers and sort of laughed. I said, yes, I've called more like 30 numbers and no one could help me so I found myself driving another 2 hours and 20 minutes to handle it myself and this is a joke.. who is protecting me? who is helping? who is helping my kids? why am I the one who is jumping though hoops? why am I the one who is still feeling dizzy and has bruises? why am I not unable to pay my bills or buy groceries because of this and I missed work? who is helping me? He is sitting behind bars with 3 meals per day and showering and has electricity..what about me here struggling to survive spending money on gas that takes away from grocery money..what about me? I'm having a very hard time and I'm scared and I know I need to move back to Loomis but I don't have the money to do that. I just received a notice on my door telling me my ex boyfriend has not paid our sewer and garbage bill which is now $300.00 and if I don't pay it in 48 hours they will start an eviction. I have to sign off for now..