Living as a Victim

I am so tired of hearing that.. oh, you're the victim, victim, victim, victim! I am not going to allow myself and my family to be the victim. I am going to be known as the person who brought on changes in law from my horrible experience. Our system is nutty, protection goes to the person who committed the crime, why? Why am I the one who had to do all the running around to try and protect myself, why am I the one who had to call over 80 phone numbers and still get no where.

He beat the living "day light" out of me and I was told he is only doing 5 months in jail, 52 week domestic violence class and 2 years probation! FOR WHAT HE DID TO ME, that is not right. Not right at all. He will also get 30 days credit for good behavior...what about me? I live with the nightmare everyday..he "says" he can't remember what happened and then he says, oh, she was mad all day, I should have just walked away...WHAT IS HE TALKING ABOUT? He is trying to play the victim and get sympathy from people. If he did nothing wrong then he would not be behind bars. I'm so tired of his lies, drinking and anger..Oh yea, our whole relationship issues were about his drinking and anger problems..He says that he has no problem with that..PLEASE, that is totally denial and for a man of 46 years..why can't he begin to take responsibility for his actions? He has never done that,. maybe I thought I could change him because I loved him so much..he actually had a domestic violence inflicting corporal punishment in 1990..so that old saying if he's done it once he will do it again...sounds like it's true. (he was not with me in 1990, that was his ex-wife who told me...he's never touched me before) bunch of liars! Sorry but I very angry right now...the sentencing is this Friday, May 22 in San Jose, CA...more to follow.