This Friday is sentencing....

I'm feeling very scared but trying to be strong for my kids. The nerves and headaches are really starting to bother me. With no insurance I continue to suffer through all this. I am still getting very dizzy mostly at night when I'm trying to rest. I can't help but think he gave me some type of horrible brain damage. The amount of punches to my head was too many to count, one witness said. And kicking me in the head and neck,.scary stuff.

I still feel a little surprised that he is acting like he does not know what happened. He's playing the victim and saying I was mad at him.. How can people be like that especially someone I was living with for 3 years??? WHO is that person who sits in jail?? Why was I with him?? All these questions I think I will toss out the window because I no longer care to know someone like him.
I no longer wish to help him financially like I did when we were together, I no longer wish to associate myself with someone who is on this earth taking up space. Someone who only exist and does nothing to help himself or others.

Looking back, he was always this person. WHY didn't I see it? Love.. My mom says, Love is blind...,deaf, and dumb. We get wrapped up in the wrong things and don't see what we truly have until it is too late...we starting thinking with our hearts instead of our head...he never had anything to offer me..,not one thing.. he was always a user of people and I was his next idiot that feel for it.

got to go for now..I hope someone gets something out of this experience to help them. Ladies & gentlemen, we are better that this.. no one should ever put a hand on us for any reason. If they did it once..they will do it again..maybe not today or tomorrow but they will...My guy had a domestic violence charge 19 years prior to me....what does that tell you. Let us love ourselves and be OK to live alone and with our family and say to heck with people like you. I'm better than that and I deserve a better life! Amen!