Shameful...just shameful.

My gosh- I guess my last relationship really screwed me up.  It made me insensitive to another human being. How could I have had no regard for another human life.  How could I not ask how the person was doing? I feel I need to apologize to them and myself.  I had a moment this afternoon as I was sitting in my doctors office waiting for some test results.  I felt this surge of horror and fear as I connected with my harsh words spoken the night before.  I am not that person.  I am not a person who does not have compassion for others.  I have to apologize.

With all my heart,

Please accept my most sincere apology for my behaviour yesterday. I have thought long and hard about what happened and I realise how very upset you must have been. 

I am really sorry for creating the situation which I know I should have handled better. I admit that I was in the wrong and can only say how sorry I am. I can promise you that this will never happen again and hope that you will give me the opportunity to prove this to you.

I understand that it might be difficult for you to accept my apology but hope that this letter will help. I hope you can forgive me.

Jacqueline

Lord, Please give me strength, courage and wisdom to continue my journey.  I'm starting to blow it and I'm keeping the faith.  Lord, I pray for compassion and I never forget this harsh lesson. Amen!